Tuesday, October 26, 2004
Welcome to my life.
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
But deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what its like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
But deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what its like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Saturday, October 23, 2004
Curse my Computer.
You know,there is this great game that the people in my school are playing,MU online.Its a game quite similar to diablo but with a lot more features..its a damn cool game.So I got caught up with the bandwagon and played along with my friends.The thing is,I could only play in school as my computer hasn't had the programme installed in yet.Aliff told me to go ahead and get the programme installed in my computer.
So for the past two days,I have been switching on both my computer and internet dial up connection, seriously pissed off my dad in the process,and getting the whole mammajamma of software downloaded and installed to run the game.Seeing that my internet connection was a 56k dial up,you could imagine the time taken to download a 74MB file.And that was only the game..I had to download the patches,graphic drivers and a lot of kahuna...The thing is,if someone were to call,my connection will automatically be cut off and there goes the 43MB file that I had downloaded so far.Altogether I spent maybe just over 48 hours downloading and it was a seriously depressing experience.
After all is said and done,I could fianlly play the bloody game.When my computer connected to the game server,I was almightily pleased with myself.Suddenly a message pop up telling me to get the latest graphic driver.After spending around two bloody hours checking my computer system,I realised the offending mistake.My graphic card is apparently a cirrus logic graphic card which is totally incompatible with the game.Shit.Who in the hell owns some cirrus logic hardware?I was so bloody shocked and fed up,I was seriuosly considering screwing my fast and letting go a string of mild and offensive expletives at my computer.So now I'm stuck with a massive game in my computer that I can't play and I can't uninstall.So now I'm still stuck to killing diablo for the umpteenth time.So what else is new?
So for the past two days,I have been switching on both my computer and internet dial up connection, seriously pissed off my dad in the process,and getting the whole mammajamma of software downloaded and installed to run the game.Seeing that my internet connection was a 56k dial up,you could imagine the time taken to download a 74MB file.And that was only the game..I had to download the patches,graphic drivers and a lot of kahuna...The thing is,if someone were to call,my connection will automatically be cut off and there goes the 43MB file that I had downloaded so far.Altogether I spent maybe just over 48 hours downloading and it was a seriously depressing experience.
After all is said and done,I could fianlly play the bloody game.When my computer connected to the game server,I was almightily pleased with myself.Suddenly a message pop up telling me to get the latest graphic driver.After spending around two bloody hours checking my computer system,I realised the offending mistake.My graphic card is apparently a cirrus logic graphic card which is totally incompatible with the game.Shit.Who in the hell owns some cirrus logic hardware?I was so bloody shocked and fed up,I was seriuosly considering screwing my fast and letting go a string of mild and offensive expletives at my computer.So now I'm stuck with a massive game in my computer that I can't play and I can't uninstall.So now I'm still stuck to killing diablo for the umpteenth time.So what else is new?
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
To do.
All of a sudden,I got a bunch of things to do now that I think of it.
1.I apologised for the absurd lack of entries nowadays,I just don't know why I'm not blogging..
2.Like to wish Bapak Azmi all the best in Tekong and take care of yourself while you're there,your anak2 will not be there to take care of you pak...
3.Just remembered that I don't really have bought anything for Hari Raya and don't know why I'm not panicked(but then again I'm usually not.)
4.Need to get The Sims Game!!I miss playing it like crazy,again I don't know why.
5.Somehow I lost track of my asics hyperspeed spikes and I have been looking all over for it.I remembered I wore it for the national 1500m final..
6.Need to start my long runs again.Nearly lost it during my first track training in about 7 weeks.But then again,why the heck was I running for an hour when Mr Chua told me to do only 30 minutes of easy running?I couldn't figure it out myself.
7.My friends introduce me to this game on the net http://www.muonline.com .Its something like diablo or something like that.
Now what happen that could change the outcome of my life today?I found out that I've failed my chemistry.Ok,Dr Chia just strongly hinted at it.But then again,that's what hints are for,to help you find the answer.I also found out I might passed GP.Mr Andrew exact words were,
"It is very unfortunate that I cannot fail you for all the homework you didn't hand in,which is everything,and the file that you also didn't hand in for checking.I would also like to fail you for the fact that you of all people give your classmates a bad example of how to pass GP and that you are extremely disruptive in my class and always makes the most noise.However I like to fail you,I cannot."
I strongly suspect that he was being sarcastic with the latter two points.But then again,Mr Andrew will never lie,just beat around the bush and even give hints that the blind can see.So conclusion is that I might have passed GP,maybe even aced it.Another that happened was the talk about future SCs and FLs.Hafiz told me that he is marking a few people in class,namely Suan Zhi,Jia Yi,Willy,Shaheda and Xue Fen.Well to me they are all pretty good students both academically and characterwise but they are lacking in the leadership department ie. They will NEVER sacrifice their dignity for the benefit of whatever groups they might represent.In other words,they are shy like hell and won't get out of their comfort circles unless something happens that will make me change my opinion about them.Well me?Might be,but I'm severely lacking in the brains and initiative department.Hah.
1.I apologised for the absurd lack of entries nowadays,I just don't know why I'm not blogging..
2.Like to wish Bapak Azmi all the best in Tekong and take care of yourself while you're there,your anak2 will not be there to take care of you pak...
3.Just remembered that I don't really have bought anything for Hari Raya and don't know why I'm not panicked(but then again I'm usually not.)
4.Need to get The Sims Game!!I miss playing it like crazy,again I don't know why.
5.Somehow I lost track of my asics hyperspeed spikes and I have been looking all over for it.I remembered I wore it for the national 1500m final..
6.Need to start my long runs again.Nearly lost it during my first track training in about 7 weeks.But then again,why the heck was I running for an hour when Mr Chua told me to do only 30 minutes of easy running?I couldn't figure it out myself.
7.My friends introduce me to this game on the net http://www.muonline.com .Its something like diablo or something like that.
Now what happen that could change the outcome of my life today?I found out that I've failed my chemistry.Ok,Dr Chia just strongly hinted at it.But then again,that's what hints are for,to help you find the answer.I also found out I might passed GP.Mr Andrew exact words were,
"It is very unfortunate that I cannot fail you for all the homework you didn't hand in,which is everything,and the file that you also didn't hand in for checking.I would also like to fail you for the fact that you of all people give your classmates a bad example of how to pass GP and that you are extremely disruptive in my class and always makes the most noise.However I like to fail you,I cannot."
I strongly suspect that he was being sarcastic with the latter two points.But then again,Mr Andrew will never lie,just beat around the bush and even give hints that the blind can see.So conclusion is that I might have passed GP,maybe even aced it.Another that happened was the talk about future SCs and FLs.Hafiz told me that he is marking a few people in class,namely Suan Zhi,Jia Yi,Willy,Shaheda and Xue Fen.Well to me they are all pretty good students both academically and characterwise but they are lacking in the leadership department ie. They will NEVER sacrifice their dignity for the benefit of whatever groups they might represent.In other words,they are shy like hell and won't get out of their comfort circles unless something happens that will make me change my opinion about them.Well me?Might be,but I'm severely lacking in the brains and initiative department.Hah.
Monday, October 18, 2004
Numb.
Tired.Sleepy.Wasted again.I think I ate too much daging dendeng again.Did nothing on saturday.
Sunday.Had a lousy soccer match against Faan's friends again.Again we ended up fighing again.It almost turn out to a match of shit face with Efin almost punching the bloody guy in the face again.Break fast.Didn't eat.Went home.
Today.Went to school.Saw the futility of my actions almost immediately.Did nothing except heard a few people talk nonsense into our ears,poured blue sand into circles and had a soccer ball hit me a few times.Went geylang at night.Nothing came to my attention.Ate till I got sick again.Damn.
Sunday.Had a lousy soccer match against Faan's friends again.Again we ended up fighing again.It almost turn out to a match of shit face with Efin almost punching the bloody guy in the face again.Break fast.Didn't eat.Went home.
Today.Went to school.Saw the futility of my actions almost immediately.Did nothing except heard a few people talk nonsense into our ears,poured blue sand into circles and had a soccer ball hit me a few times.Went geylang at night.Nothing came to my attention.Ate till I got sick again.Damn.
Friday, October 15, 2004
Breaking the fast-Not by linkin park.
It was a day of sorts,today.I am pretty sure that what had happened today was a fluke in the universe,a free radical wreaking havoc on the sub-atomic scale and ripping the quantum foam apart...hehe,ok that was a sentence picked out of Timeline.Hmm,seems like a miracle occured in the place of today..
Today was the first day of Ramadhan,the fasting month for muslims.I woke up at around 4.30am and we had "dinner"..It was quite a lively start with me and my siblings talking bull while we were eating.After all's said and done,I went to school for my final paper,physics.I personally know that my weak link in physics was parabolic motion and I used up two days just to revise that,hoping that kinematics would formed the bulk of the questions and knowing that I would be dead if they tested d.c. circuits or work,energy and power.Turns out God was smiling on me,as majority of the questions were on kinematics.Tough luck to Willy who decided to study d.c. circuits instead.Well,I have to admit that it was a relatively easier paper to do than chemistry and mathematics..
So yeah,after school had friday prayers and all that.Aliff,An-nur and Idham had nothing to do so we went around searching for pirated cd shops.Yeah we know that sounds bad and sucky but WTH,it is our time.I was looking for The Sims but all they had were the upgrades and the version two.Then went back and took a bloody(hey I don't care,it's not a vulgarity) long time to buy nasi ambeng,went back,had breakfast and went for my terawih prayers..whoah,it has beena long time since I went for terawih,the last being the previous year..haha..well I'm back now I think that it's an overall good,if not unmemorable,day for me.
Today was the first day of Ramadhan,the fasting month for muslims.I woke up at around 4.30am and we had "dinner"..It was quite a lively start with me and my siblings talking bull while we were eating.After all's said and done,I went to school for my final paper,physics.I personally know that my weak link in physics was parabolic motion and I used up two days just to revise that,hoping that kinematics would formed the bulk of the questions and knowing that I would be dead if they tested d.c. circuits or work,energy and power.Turns out God was smiling on me,as majority of the questions were on kinematics.Tough luck to Willy who decided to study d.c. circuits instead.Well,I have to admit that it was a relatively easier paper to do than chemistry and mathematics..
So yeah,after school had friday prayers and all that.Aliff,An-nur and Idham had nothing to do so we went around searching for pirated cd shops.Yeah we know that sounds bad and sucky but WTH,it is our time.I was looking for The Sims but all they had were the upgrades and the version two.Then went back and took a bloody(hey I don't care,it's not a vulgarity) long time to buy nasi ambeng,went back,had breakfast and went for my terawih prayers..whoah,it has beena long time since I went for terawih,the last being the previous year..haha..well I'm back now I think that it's an overall good,if not unmemorable,day for me.
Thursday, October 14, 2004
Over my head(better off dead).
What happened to you
You played the victim for so long now in this game
What I thought was true
Is made of fiction and I’m following the same
But if I try to make sense of this mess I’m in
I’m not sure where I should begin
I’m fallin’
I’m fallin’
Now I’m in over my head
For something I said
Completely misread
I’m better off dead
And now I can see
I think it could be
This hypocrisy is beginning to get to me
It’s none of my concern
What is luck to me I don’t believe in fame
I guess you never heard
I bet the makers they don’t even know your name
But if I had to say goodbye to leave this hell
I think my time has served me well
I’m fallin’
I’m fallin’
This came all before
Those who suffer more
I’m too awake for this to be a nightmare
What’s with my disgrace
I lost the human race
No one left for this to blow up in you face
Who said it was so easy to put back all of these pieces
Who said it was so easy to put back all of these pieces
Over my head
Better off dead
Over my head
Better off dead
You played the victim for so long now in this game
What I thought was true
Is made of fiction and I’m following the same
But if I try to make sense of this mess I’m in
I’m not sure where I should begin
I’m fallin’
I’m fallin’
Now I’m in over my head
For something I said
Completely misread
I’m better off dead
And now I can see
I think it could be
This hypocrisy is beginning to get to me
It’s none of my concern
What is luck to me I don’t believe in fame
I guess you never heard
I bet the makers they don’t even know your name
But if I had to say goodbye to leave this hell
I think my time has served me well
I’m fallin’
I’m fallin’
This came all before
Those who suffer more
I’m too awake for this to be a nightmare
What’s with my disgrace
I lost the human race
No one left for this to blow up in you face
Who said it was so easy to put back all of these pieces
Who said it was so easy to put back all of these pieces
Over my head
Better off dead
Over my head
Better off dead
Besok puase Beb!
Spent all day studying for physics..ok,spent most of the day putting physics definitions and concepts into my brain.I spend the other time of the day watching the Yankees vs Soxs game..don't really know why I'm so interested in baseball nowadays,maybe because there isn't a more exhilarating sport like watching grass grow or the Iron Chef series.Yeah..so damn glad that physics is my last paper...Hope Newton will turn in his grave when I throw his laws out the door..
Tomorrow is the start of Ramadhan!God,miss all the long trainings while I would be fasting and all..makes my training all the more effective and tiring...Well starting from next week I will be going to three trainings;running,rugby and soccer with GPFC..or was it GPUFC..or is it GHFC?Ah,I don't really know...we need to brush up on our skills and tactics for we're taking part in the Pasir Ris football league;seven teams are taking part and the top teams would only get a trophy..Well at least a trophy,rather than some stupid certificates..anyway back to ramadhan..All those times walking around Geylang and all..brings back all that nostalgia and memories.God,I sound like a eighty year old retiree....Well then,can't sleep so damn late,have to wake up at four later in the morning..To all you muslims,selamat berpuasa,jangan tak!Haha,Besok puase beb.God,I sound so happy.Heh.
Tomorrow is the start of Ramadhan!God,miss all the long trainings while I would be fasting and all..makes my training all the more effective and tiring...Well starting from next week I will be going to three trainings;running,rugby and soccer with GPFC..or was it GPUFC..or is it GHFC?Ah,I don't really know...we need to brush up on our skills and tactics for we're taking part in the Pasir Ris football league;seven teams are taking part and the top teams would only get a trophy..Well at least a trophy,rather than some stupid certificates..anyway back to ramadhan..All those times walking around Geylang and all..brings back all that nostalgia and memories.God,I sound like a eighty year old retiree....Well then,can't sleep so damn late,have to wake up at four later in the morning..To all you muslims,selamat berpuasa,jangan tak!Haha,Besok puase beb.God,I sound so happy.Heh.
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
Respected Mecenary.
Sorry for the drought of entries,just that I was busy screwing myself up over the exams..So I decided why not have a little break and go on the net for a while?Here I am,typing away on my unbranded keyboard with nothing much to say.By the way I visited this web http://www.blazonry.com/scripting/wuname.php and typed in my name and I got a pretty cool new name-Respected Mercenary...ok then,what happen this past few days?I had chemistry paper on monday which was a total massacre of slaughtered students...I think Dr Chia had a genocidal death wish...Today I had Malay paper.."Peningkatan kadar kelahiran bayi akan mendatangkan pelbagai manfaat.Huraikan."I thought I did that essay pretty well,although I fear for my useless grammer and its implications on the marks of my essay..And now after this I'm going to study hard for my C maths so I will get a AO pass..thats good enough for me..
Sunday, October 10, 2004
Escaping from life.
I had GP paper yesterday morning.I did "Should Singapore import foreign talent into sports?".Haiz,I found my essay to be pretty biased towards letting foreign athletes play for Singapore,after all,that's what they are paid to do right?The comprehension was about women being herded into the "mommy track",a career track that effectively hampers their chances at future leadership positions.The questions were alright,except for the summary.I ran of points and I barely reach half of my required 120 word limit.I found my application question fairly easy to do.After the paper,i went to eat with Aliff,Aung,An-nur and Hafiz.I pretty much kept to myself throughout the meal,except fort the time I and Aliff sang 'Satu Hari Di Hari Raya' all the way till the 21st day of it!
Later on,I went to Escape Theme Park with my Squink.Along the way,I'm sorry that we argued alot about me not having any money to spend which of course upset her greatly as it was supposed to be my treat.After pissing her off and she giving me the silent treatment,we eventually ended up at the Entrance of Escape.
I'm sorry,Sqoink.....it was supposed to be ur treat wasn't it?Mine was supposed to be treating u to watch 'White Chicks',remember?hmm....nvm larh.We made up in the end and had alot of fun over there.Noe sumtin?It's really sweet noeing that u're first time being there was with me! (",) And the coolest part of this trip was when we were the only ones on the viking ride.hehehe.S.H.M.I.L.Y!!!!!
Well this is a new feature I'm starting.Keep a lookout in the future for this.Anyway yeah,there was this time when we were alone on the Viking ride and we were sitting on the opposite ends.We were most probably the most silent couple ever to take the ride.Haiz,I used to remember when I was really scared of the bloody ride.Now I can yawn about it.The best ride for me was definitely the go-kart section.I took the rides like 3 times and the only reason why I didn't took more was because the queue was really long..the 1st time I took it with Squink,she was begging me to slow down,even pointing the Slow Down sign to me a couple of times and screaming at my ear over the drone of the engine.Haha...now that was a laugh...We took all the rides until both of us felt almost like vomitting.Now that is taking more value for money,more bang for your buck..blah blah blah..ok then,now I will numb my mind with chemistry and hope Dr Chia won't ask me why a astatine molecule has a higher boiling point than fluorine.
Later on,I went to Escape Theme Park with my Squink.Along the way,I'm sorry that we argued alot about me not having any money to spend which of course upset her greatly as it was supposed to be my treat.After pissing her off and she giving me the silent treatment,we eventually ended up at the Entrance of Escape.
I'm sorry,Sqoink.....it was supposed to be ur treat wasn't it?Mine was supposed to be treating u to watch 'White Chicks',remember?hmm....nvm larh.We made up in the end and had alot of fun over there.Noe sumtin?It's really sweet noeing that u're first time being there was with me! (",) And the coolest part of this trip was when we were the only ones on the viking ride.hehehe.S.H.M.I.L.Y!!!!!
Well this is a new feature I'm starting.Keep a lookout in the future for this.Anyway yeah,there was this time when we were alone on the Viking ride and we were sitting on the opposite ends.We were most probably the most silent couple ever to take the ride.Haiz,I used to remember when I was really scared of the bloody ride.Now I can yawn about it.The best ride for me was definitely the go-kart section.I took the rides like 3 times and the only reason why I didn't took more was because the queue was really long..the 1st time I took it with Squink,she was begging me to slow down,even pointing the Slow Down sign to me a couple of times and screaming at my ear over the drone of the engine.Haha...now that was a laugh...We took all the rides until both of us felt almost like vomitting.Now that is taking more value for money,more bang for your buck..blah blah blah..ok then,now I will numb my mind with chemistry and hope Dr Chia won't ask me why a astatine molecule has a higher boiling point than fluorine.
"Doing your work now may pay off later in life but procrastination pays off
now."
A bloody wise guy.
Friday, October 08, 2004
Last day.
Today is the last day before my promos.Its going to be a start of a hell of a week tomorrow.The mood in school today was pretty sombre,not a lot of people making noise and the teachers were more than willing to leave us alone for the rest of the day.In all seriousness,I don't really know what exactly I am feeling now.I'm not at all scared,not nervous,not anxious.I'm actually getting to be worried at the lack of feelings in me now.What the heck.
This is a RJC GP standard?!
Okay,so Mr Andrew,being the kind and generous person he is,showed us a GP essay he ripped off from the net.In case you want to read the different GP essays that Typical RJC students write or so they claim,the website is http://schools.moe.edu.sg/rjc/subjects/english/gp/downloads/index.htm#essays .
All I got to say is,Holy Crap!To quote one essay about the appeal of cults,
A typical MI student would write,"Jack shit."Haha..actually I don't know how a MI student would write this essay.As for me,apart from some superbly applied bombastic words that a typical degree holder will never heard of,the essays are well above of what I'm used to.It's as though the student is going out of his way to impress the marker of using words that he himself might know the meaning of.
Case in point,the word bacchanalian which means a riotously drunken merrymaking,which in layman's terms is good kinky sex while you're as drunk as a cow on a barrel of vodka.But then again a typical student would never thought of using bacchanalian or even understand what it means.A typical student would say "When you think of cults,you tend to think of alot of people having sex and killing each other and drinking their blood."Doesn't quite sound impressive or awe-inspiring right?Another example of impressive writing,this one a conclusion on the neccesity of religion.
All I got to say is,Holy Crap!To quote one essay about the appeal of cults,
"Conventional notions of cults are largely unsympathetic and damning. While images of Black Masses and bacchanalian orgies sometimes arise from distortions by a sensationalist media culture, most cults frequently use subversive tactics. These may include indoctrination, the threat of physical violence or spiritual suffering and peer pressure, resulting in overdependence and an inability to break away. "
A typical MI student would write,"Jack shit."Haha..actually I don't know how a MI student would write this essay.As for me,apart from some superbly applied bombastic words that a typical degree holder will never heard of,the essays are well above of what I'm used to.It's as though the student is going out of his way to impress the marker of using words that he himself might know the meaning of.
Case in point,the word bacchanalian which means a riotously drunken merrymaking,which in layman's terms is good kinky sex while you're as drunk as a cow on a barrel of vodka.But then again a typical student would never thought of using bacchanalian or even understand what it means.A typical student would say "When you think of cults,you tend to think of alot of people having sex and killing each other and drinking their blood."Doesn't quite sound impressive or awe-inspiring right?Another example of impressive writing,this one a conclusion on the neccesity of religion.
Now would you even thought of writing the last line as reference to the question at hand with a direct statement with such glaring impunity?Even I didn't thought of that."In his book "How We Believe", Michael Shermer terms himself an "agnostic", or one who cannot conclude whether there is a God due to the insufficient evidence and that beliefs change as new information is presented. The question of whether there is a God will always be there, believe in what you need to. That will be your necessary religion. "
Thursday, October 07, 2004
Long time.
It has been a long time since I put up my last entry log.Mostly it's because of school and other non-essential stuff.Haiz,don't really know what to write after all these time...a lot of things have passed and gone.I've gotten sick and all,still sick now and with my GP paper,the first of my prelims papers, being on this Saturday,I don't really know if I am all that well-prepared.One of the few things that I remember was the presidential and vice-presidential debates,the movie Resident:Evil I watched with An-nur,the match between Arsenal and Charlton that ended 4-0 and the bloody fact that I am playing basketball for PE.Another thing,I don't like your hair at all Salmiah!!There,I've said it.
I am 26% evil.
I try to stay away from evil deeds but succumb to temptation every once in a while. I'm not quite on my way to hell but I certainly have some explaining to do.
Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com
I try to stay away from evil deeds but succumb to temptation every once in a while. I'm not quite on my way to hell but I certainly have some explaining to do.
Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com
Monday, October 04, 2004
Everybody's free to wear Sunscreen.
Wear sunscreen.
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.
Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing every day that scares you.
Sing.
Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss.
Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.
Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch.
Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.
Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.
Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.
Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.
Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.
Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.
Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard. Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.
Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen.
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.
Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing every day that scares you.
Sing.
Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss.
Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.
Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch.
Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.
Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.
Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.
Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.
Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.
Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.
Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard. Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.
Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen.
Sunday, October 03, 2004
Here's to the night.
So denied so I lied are you the now or never kind
In a day and a day love I'm gonna be gone for good again
Are you willing to be had are you cool with just tonight
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well
Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon
Put your name on the line along with place and time
Wanna stay not to go I wanna ditch the logical
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well
Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon
All my time is froze in motion
Can't I stay an hour or two or more
Don't let me let you go
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well
Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon
In a day and a day love I'm gonna be gone for good again
Are you willing to be had are you cool with just tonight
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well
Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon
Put your name on the line along with place and time
Wanna stay not to go I wanna ditch the logical
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well
Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon
All my time is froze in motion
Can't I stay an hour or two or more
Don't let me let you go
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well
Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon
Friday, October 01, 2004
That's it.
I've been thinking now,and I've set my mind on it.After the promos,whether or not I get promoted or retained,I'm going to quit MI.Join PJC in 2005 and join the arts stream,I can get where I want to go without having to sit through 2 more years of learning science that would just numb my brain with numbers and I'm way better doing what I do best.Can't stay in MI anymore...I can't stay in the school for another 3 more years.Regret my decision to stay like hell.
