Life sucks,so what?Rangers Lead The Way!

It has been a while since I post any entry.Two reasons-
I'm having my common test period now.
There's something wrong with my phoneline and I can't get my computer to connect to the net.

So yeah,it's my common test now.I'm pretty confident of physics,know that my maths paper was a lost cause and thought I blew it for my chemistry paper.

What then about the past few days?Been having strange weird dreams which I could amazingly recall in detail.

Somehow I have a feeling something is going to happen next week.Really big.

Everybody went out today.My mom went out to Johore with my brother.My sister went out to work.I might as well went out.Which I did.Went to the library and borrowed a few books on the complications of communism and different political systems.That is,if you are dumb enough to believe me.Actually I went one step higher and borrowed a few books on the philosophy and metaphysical beings of man in this world.Very high-ended,mind-blowing stuff that can waste your brainpower if your'e not too careful.And again if you'd believed me you would be severely lacking of brainpower,not to mention the lack of usable brains itself.Nah,I just went and borrowed a idoit's guide to being a dumies.(That's the exact spelling mind you.)Very enlightening stuff indeed.There were some real jems like "I'm nucking futs!" and "New age are old shit." and the classic,"Don't join cults that have the cultleader screwing around with everyone.You could be next."So that's about it.

I went to the bazaar after that and bought this "reality supernatural"vcd(is there even such a thing?)titled "entity" but now my mom is so pissed scared from hearing stories at her workplace that she doesn't want anyone to watch it in my house.So now I have to find a willing friend to let me watch it.And if possible a girl please.Otherwise it is a super waste of ten bucks.I might as well buy FHM's hottest girls.

For the first time in MI I have slept in class.I mean,there were dozens of times when I slept in school,but those were because the teacher didn't bother coming or during breaks.This was during GP period before school ended at 3.45.I just couldn't keep my eyes open and fell asleep with my head on my desk.We were doing vocabulary discussion which is one that I would usually participate enthusiastically if not for the fact that I was feeling uber lethargic and just nodded off.I woke up ten minutes before Ms Ng's class ended and for once I felt guilty,a strange enough experience for a hardcore procrastinator.After class ended I apologised to her and she was alright about it.She told me that the last essay I wrote was good enough for a B if I could keep it up.Well that is quite something in a class where the normal essay is a F.Alright then,I know I've used up my bragging rights but there are other things I want to blow my trumpet about.

The first is the sparring match between me and dear old Senthil.I whipped his crumbly butt in msn messaging.It all started when he made a silly mistake.
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:ok this converstation jus took a turn at crapville
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:conversation*
Knight_Templar:converstation?
Knight_Templar:next stop,converstation!
Knight_Templar:tingting!Next stop,converstation...
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:okok i realise ur english is way better than mine since computer language jus degrades mine
Knight_Templar:converstation...
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:but hell
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:im human
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:and i will damn well make mistakes
Knight_Templar:well elementary my dear asshole...
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:lol tat was a gd one
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:but u suck cuz it was aimed at me
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:ill reuse next time on others
Knight_Templar:haha senthil...where's your sense of sadistic sarcasm..?
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:it disappeared down the deep hole called sch
Knight_Templar:lost it among de nerds?
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:yup exactly
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:man u noe how hard it is to find someone to have an intelligent convo with
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:not tat this convo is particularly enlightening but u get wat i mean
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:they either dun get my sacarsm or the words i use
Knight_Templar:yes i noe wat u mean..tat ur stupid..
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:not my intended meaning
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:but ya im stupid....tats y im talking to u
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:to rub my ego
Knight_Templar:n to bruise ur balls doing so...
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:wat? tats it?
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:wat happened to the clever retorts
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:replaced wit meaningless verbal fillers?
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:zaki zaki..
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:lol anyway..u noe wat today is my last assignment day
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:so im gonna relax by playing games
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:so we will clash words another time man
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:cya ard
Knight_Templar:very well Luke Asswalker..
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:thank u
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:cuz i WALK all OVER your ASS
Knight_Templar:may ur balls stick wif u...
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:ill take tat as me being fertile for a long time
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:thanks again
Knight_Templar:nope...ur gonna hv erectile dysfunction...no lightsaber mano....
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:erectile dysfunction...is that when ppl look at you and lose all sexual libido?
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:yup mus be
Knight_Templar:nope...wen ppl listen 2 me talk abt u and THEN lose all sexual libido...
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:so u talk about me alot then?
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:nt sure if im flattered or scared
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:anyway...like i sad
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:counterstrike is calling
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:said*
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:so cya ard man
Knight_Templar:lyk u sad?
Knight_Templar:u r depressed?
Knight_Templar:take a prozac..
Knight_Templar:no...take de whole bottle...
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:yup im depressed
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:exams are coming
-=[ SeN+H|L ]=-:a whole bottle sounds nice
Knight_Templar:n so will ur brain after tat..
Knight_Templar:it will sound nice...nicely empty..
At this,Senthil wisely chose to go offline.

The other thing was training today.I think the backs did pretty well during the team run.I had to go to fullback as Shazrul wasn't there.At first I messed up a few,,then we got things into motion.We had full intensity teamplays for thirty minutes then we stopped.I didn't know what the heck fullbacks are supposed to do so I got into all the backs play coming from the other side of the field.For thirty minutes.Something I wouldn't recommend doing in the near future.But we have to.

We have 19 days.

The return of the year ones.In force at that.A bunch of mats came,thinking they would make MI the school they would spend the next three years.I have a gut feeling the year 3s and 2s would think otherwise.Well they could stay,but I doubt if they could join rugby,soccer or even hockey,seeing that none of these CCAs has mats.Wait,maybe football does.But you didn't hear that from me.Hmm,seeing that they are mats,I believe that they wouldn't even bother joining anything.At least the guys in PAE batch were nerds,but they were respectable.There's no respect for these jokers in MI,not the least among the rugby guys.

Not with 20 days left.

A bunch of things were swirling around in my head.Maybe it's because today I handed in my first math assignment to Mr Saw.He was visibly impressed that I had done assignment 2.3 while forgoing assignments 1.1 all the way to 2.2.That besides the point,Zahier is the only one who still hasn't done anything much at all.


Or maybe it's because there was hardly any year ones in school today,having to see whether they would make it to a mechatronics course in poly or ITE.Having said that,no disrespect to poly students,I don't see a freaking difference whether you are in a business and IT course or if you're in business IT course.Literally,of course,there is a noticeable difference in the overall meaning of the phrases.But does it matter that you're going to end up sweeping roads anyway?(Note:This is specifically aimed at Senthil.)Does it matter if having a quality control management engineering diploma makes you more qualified to peel potatoes than a guy holding a biotech engineering diploma?(Not aimed at Faizah.Honest.)

Actually to tell you the truth,I'm pretty scared about what engineers are capable of.Japanese ones especially.You never know when they would come up with a hands-free can opener or fireproof cigarettes.It scares me that they have made a robot capable of looking human,understanding 40,000 phrases in five languages and incapable of knowing it looks pretty dumb to a five year old.I mean,most five year olds are multilingual,having spoken fushfush,or maybe rwar.Some I know are capable of relaying their thoughts to their parents,it's just that their parents already have resist telepathy upgrades and encounter an error reading the thoughts in Microsoft XP when the kids are using Linux.

I'm sure some will disagree with me,but I don't think I'm that good at english.There are other people more literate than me like...like..hmmph..Ah,like George Bush Jr. for starters.Did you watch any of his speeches?The guy uses the word freedom in so many different contexts that it turns the cerebrospinal fluid in my brain into a sticky mess.Wait,it is a sticky mess.Nevermind about that.Right,George Bush is a real advocate of the word freedom.Just the word,not the idea.Otherwise,he would have let Saddam Hussein go free and let him rule another country,like Texas for instance.Sure as hell,the number of deathrow inmates would increase exponentially in ,say, three days.A day to get to know his new generals,another to get a jar of anthrax and a few rolls of weed and the the third to make a decree that all infidels to be hanged like pigs.In Saddam Hussein's case,its most probably be all of Texas.

Alright,enough of the Bush jokes.The guy is smart after all.Or maybe it's just the speechwriter.

If you have heard of this song before,good for you.
If you haven't,get it now.
If you can,get the acoustic version.
If you can't get anything at all,here's the lyrics.That's the best I can do.

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
and sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

The first day of term two and I got scared shitless for thinking that the common test would be this week.So I had about seven more days left.And my maths is still in disarray.So what if I'm still the same procrastinating jackass that I was ten years ago,but there was a study done that has more than 67% americans being unable to change their bad habits.So what if I'm not an american,I'm still in the majority and with Mr Bolton being the new U.S. ambassador to the UN,that is more than equal US representation.Alright,enough with all the current affairs in the world.Now where was I?Oh yeah,the procrastinating me.Well I'm done being that now.O levels posting tomorrow.Common tests next week.CCA open house the week after next.And my A division.Remember the number 22.

Athletes. They ain't like us, you know. They're like what you call freaks. Nobody can understand how they do what they do. They can't understand it themselves.

Anon.

Now suppose if that is true,why am I even here?

It was a day that seem pretty much wasted to me.I was supposed to have rugby at 12.30 but I could only make it at 2.30pm.When I reached school,all the rugby guys,including our dear old coach,were watching the floorball competition.Training was already cut short and I had come for nothing.Well I got to play some floorball but we got kicked out of the semis by,can you believe it,the tennis guys!Anyway another team of the rugby guys managed to get into the finals;when I left they were two goals down.Went to town to meet my girl and we walked around.Few things that caught my eye;

1>Armored Cav and Fighting Wing by Tom Clancy was selling for $32 a piece at BORDERS.
2>There's this nice chocolate store at Ngee Ann City basement 1.
3>Gotta try the Dendeng fried kway teow at Far East's Sakura.
4>Also got to try this snack shop beside Old Chang Kee Far East.
5>The buskers in town just keeps getting better and better.
6>The mats and minahs just keeps getting more and more.

I almost got drunk at school, at fourteen
Where I almost made out with the Homecoming Queen
Who almost went on to be Miss Texas
But lost to a slut, with much bigger breast-es
I almost dropped out to move to LA
Where I was almost famous for almost a day

And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost loved you
I almost wished you would've loved me too

I almost held up a grocery store
Where I almost did five years and then seven more
Cause I almost got bopped for a fight with a thug
Cause he almost made off with a bunch of the drugs
That I almost got hooked on cause you ran away
And I wish I would've had the nerve to ask you to stay

And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost had you
And I didn't even know it

You kept me guessin' and now I'm destined
To spend my time missing you
I almost wish you would've loved me too

Here I go, thinking 'bout all the things I could've done
I'm gonna need a forklift, cause all the baggage weighs a ton
(baggage weighs a ton)
I know we've had our problems, I can't remember one

I almost forgot to say something else
And if I can't fit it in, I'll keep it all to myself
I almost wrote a song about you today
But I tore it all up and then I threw it away

And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost had you
And I didn't even know it

You kept me guessin' and now I'm destined
To spend my time missing you
And I almost had you (almost had you)
Almost had you

I almost wish you would've loved me too

Got back from Singapore poly,had a glimpse of what a typical poly student's life would be.It was a pretty alright life although I'm not going to trade it for MI life anytime soon.Also met Lingesh;he's in track now.Hah,glad to now that some people are doing their best to change their lives.

Today,I have put my mind into five aspects of my life.Alot of things had happen to me to make me focus on these.First of all,I realised that I am a shame to my religion by not even knowing a few basic facts about Islam.I was really embaressed by that incident and I'm determined to atleast read up about my religion,even if that is to question every aspect of it.

The second is the realisation that my academic performance is nothing to be proud of,seeing that I have a B,3 AO passes and a F.That wouldn't even get me into ITE if I had beg.With my common tests two weeks from now,I have to pull up my socks or there wouldn't be any to pull at the end of the year.Well,I'm sorry that this entry had to be so sombre but I got to put my life into perspective.

All these while,my family have been supporting me and the least I can do is return a good deed.That's my third aim.

With the annoncement that NUS would not require students to have a CCA from 2007,this has make me even more worried.What about people like me?Would the likes of myself become extinct?This new relevation has made me even more resolved to do all my all for my CCAs now.I know I'm there in MI but I still can't clinch a spot among the best in Singapore.I got two more years in MI and I know most of the runners my age would be doing their swansong this year.But no harm trying at the national track and field again.But I have to go all out for next year for there isn't any more.

Rugby.The groupings had come out and we were shocked.Some had already given up.Who the fuck are you to relinquish our chances of getting into the top four to mere fate.Sure there's the plate final,but it's a freaking plate;in other words,they are rewarding you for getting fifth.We don't want fifth,we want a place in the semis.Do you want to throw all the effort that the rugby guys,Sam and Ah Chuan has put into?That is absolutely bullshit,not to mention being a little too much selfish for yourselves.C'mon guys,you can all quit after the A division but this is the last chance for the seniors to achieve something.Top four requires 100% and more,so why don't you pick up the pace now and stop whining.No one else is whining.

First and foremost,I would like to wish Mr Andrew a wonderful birthday.I'm not being sarcastic or whatever.Hope that you would be happy in your life.Mr Andrew was telling everyone that I wrote stupid stuff about him;it's not really true.He's a great guy to be with,who always managed to click with the students unlike some teachers.Maybe it's because he was from JI and that make him more open to the type of things teachers are scared of.Well,if you ask him real nice,he just might bee able to bend or break a rule just to save your ass.There,no wisecracks now right?

Just got to know our national groupings now.MI would be up against CJC,YJC,ACJC,SAJC and HCJC.As usual JJC would have the easy group with RJC,PJC,SRJC and TJC.BUt that hasn't change anything.

First of all,I would like to thank and tell Aung,my dear old friend,that I am ultimately humbled by his proclamation that I am a genius.Deeply honoured,truly.I'm sorry I couldn't msn back to you Aung,I was caught up doing my homework believe it or not.Well the reason he was impressed was because of the quotes I had put up here,particularly one which reason that life literally sucks.Aung,I came up with that myself and is very happy with that.The other quote was found on a book I read but couldn't remember the title.There you go,acknowledging someone is always good for the soul.

You know what?All these three days when I'm home and doing homework,revising and all that,I realised I have no social,outdoor life.Didn't even went out for a run.I'll be checking in again once my life has become even a little bit normal.

Didn't come to school today for some apparent reason.
Maybe it's because I woke up at 7.30am.
Maybe it's because I remember jackshit for my physics test after all the mugging I've done yesterday.
Maybe it's because I just want to catch up with Days of our lives.
Maybe it's because my astrologer told me I was to hit a car and get sued by the driver.
Maybe it's because I wanted to see how my heart would beat for six hours.
Maybe it's because I don't want to see that asshole in school.
Or maybe it's because I just don't give a damn.
You decide.