Life sucks,so what?Rangers Lead The Way!

Breaking my back just to know your name
Seventeen tracks and I've had it with this game
I'm breaking my back just to know your name
But heaven ain't close in a place like this
Anything goes but don't blink you might miss
Cause heaven ain't close in a place like this
I said heaven ain't close in a place like this
Bring it back down, bring it back down tonight
Never thought I'd let a rumour ruin my moonlight

Well somebody told me
You had a boyfriend
Who looks like a girlfriend
That I had in February of last year
It's not confidential
I've got potential

Ready? Let's roll onto something new
Taking its toll and I'm leaving without you
Ready? Let's roll onto something new
But heaven ain't close in a place like this
Anything goes but don't blink you might miss

Cause heaven ain't close in a place like this
I said heaven ain't close in a place like this
Bring it back down, bring it back down tonight
Never thought I'd let a rumour ruin my moonlight

Well somebody told me
You had a boyfriend
Who looks like a girlfriend
That I had in February of last year
It's not confidential
I've got potential
A rushin', a rushin' around

Pace yourself from me
I said maybe baby please
But I just don't know now

Somebody told me
You had a boyfriend
Who looks like a girlfriend
That I had in February of last year
It's not confidential
I've got potential
A rushin', a rushin' around

liberate tuteme ex infernis.Well Aung asked for this quote from Event Horizon.The english translation is "Save yourself from hell."Kind of suits me perfectly.

Tired.Numb.Brainfreezed.Restless.Stomach turning inside-out.Not ready for the AHM tomorrow.Doubt if I can continue running the 12km route.-Dead.-

Well nothing quite happen today.Went to school,had lessons,finish school.Had chemistry lecture,ate at Al-ameen,studied at the tuition centre,got home.The only thing that got stuck in my mind all day were Michael Fay case and the thing about Ming Yang.Feel sorry for you man.That's about it.

Haiz,the things you never expect...Shit happens to everyone,well at least to me.And I got a full shitload of it.

I woke up fairly early today and I figured while I was at the bus stop that I would take the first bus that comes along.Now the bus happens to be a 66.I took the bus and got myself a seat at the back.I had spend the previous night redoing my math file and completed doing it around 4am.So you can imagine that I was fairly sleepy on the bus.So I took a nap.

And ended up at Seranggon Interchange.And it was 9.30am.Shit.

Now I could sneak back into class during break;hell,I'm the grandmaster at that.But then again,the bloody teachers would know that and consider that playing truant.But damn,I should have just come anyway,the people in my class did nuts the whole day.There was barely any studying done in the class.A serious waste of a schoolday don't you think?

I head back home,and care of Syafiqa the whole day.She was sleeping most of the time,so I could also catch up on my sleep.Hmm...miss her already..And you know what?She is two months old today,damn proud of that..hehe..Guess the day wasn't F.O.S. like I thought.

Ah,life truly sucks for me now.As you can see,lately I have been writing short entries.Can't help it...I can feel my body breaking down,it's the lerthagic,helpless feeling you get when you're seriously sick.Well I don't think I can do enough to prepare for my promos.God help me then.

AH!!miss fiqa already even though it has only been like 30minutes...haiz..well you can't have everything right?And yeah,I got my first paycheck.$30 for two hours of teaching kids that electrons are ALMOST weighless..now that is a harrowing experience.

Today is the first day of my job.It was alright,some pros,some cons.But then I have to say it has a great salary and little work,so yeah,I'm going to stick to this job.

Well let me tell you something.I'm bloody allergic to soy bean and it took me a general practitioner to tell me this.Thanks for wasting $4 finding nothing wrong with me poly doc.Ahh...damned pissed.

Why do you cry?
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Sorry guys if I still haven't tell you guys about the camp yet...its just that my mind is still dizzy after all these well and I'm going to need some time to bring all the events to mind.Anyway in the meanwhile,I would continue with my entries...

I seriously thought I would be one sorry bloody "young of a canine female" today.Why?Simply because I had done absolutely NO homework at all during the holidays!Yes!8 bloody days of which 3 were spent in camp and the other 5 wasted on sleep.I would have certainly be the epitome of the bloody slacker in life.Let me see,yeah all 5 of my subjects were forgotton...The thing is,I very well got away with it!To add irony in the mix,it is the 13th of September...the irony of things don't you think?

First off,GP.I knew there was a GP comprehension somewhere in my bag,but I never bother reading it.Besides Mr Andrew,being the kind slacker soul that he is,didn't really care of course.Then there was Chemistry.I had the redox tutorial,assignment 8 and a bunch of other ones to do.Then it hit me,Dr Chia isn't in school TODAY!Hah,the guy is undergoing his ICT...Two down,three to go.Next,malay.I had the malay TYS and the malay essay to do.I had actually planned on skipping the next three lessons.But then when Diyana,Umi and Affiza came back shortly later,I knew it was another one of God's nice tricks...there isn't a physics lesson until tomorrow and I got tonight atleast.Well last and not least was math.Ms. Loke wasn't mad about it and I more then made it up with keeping quiet,smiling at her alot and doing my own bloody work.

The 13th of September,the day I almost got away with everything.Well except for one thing.My orange bag got torn and somehow I lost my Deuter pencil case.My bag is definitely out of commission and I need to get a new place to keep my pens,pencils,etc in.But what is two things lost against a day where I should have been slaughtered,barbecued and put on the skewer and instead got off scratch-free?I think I should change my lucky number to 13...

It has been a heck of three days in SLE.Frankly speaking,I enjoyed almost every single minute of it,with a few exceptions in between.Well that can't be helped if Mr Ram is your Camp Commandant and he has a grudge against you.Anyway,got to sleep now,I feel like shit from the lack of sleep...feels almost like jetlag.Tell you more about the SLE when I feel vaguely human again.

It was a decisive,if not a satisfactory,victory for the newly named Gremlins F.C..We like bloody hell worked hard to prove to these cocksuckers that their win a few weeks ago was a bloody fluke.Let me do a quick recap of what happened this morning.

I woke up at 10am as bloody usual,took me awhile to realise that GP started 30 minutes ago and said to myself,wtf,just go at 11 later.I reached school at 1130 and found most of my class dispersing off.I went to LT1 and Mr Andrew,The son of Andeny himself,greeted me and commented on my puncuality,which was getting better everyday.While in his class,I continued reading Tom Clancy's The bear and the dragon.Well it is technically learning GP right?Afterwards had maths which was to the point of BORING! but managed to went through that.Had rugby training which was all about tackling.Can't say that I enjoyed it but every training had its lessons right?

OK,my main entry starts here.I went to this Bedok field with Aliff,Fred and Jawad.The rest of the gang were already warming up so they just started the game while we play in the second half.I don't exactly remember the starting lineup,just that Jawad,Apit,Luq the man,Fred and me were the reserves.From what I understood after the match,the first half was definitely the more calmer of the two halves.It did however,managed to piss off Murshidi so much that he said he would bloody hell punch the guy if he were to continue playing.At the end of the first half,we were up 1-0.

The second half team looks like this,a 4-5-1=
Keeper-Aliff
Sweeper-Farid
Leftback-Isa
Centreback-Efin
Rightback-Jawad
Leftwing-yours truly
Left midfield-Nas
Centre midfield-Fred
Right midfield-Khairul
Rightwing-Luqman
Roaming forward-Apit
Wait,I know that Hafiz damai was playing,afterall he did scored a hat-trick...hmm,something's wrong...nvm about that now.The first thing I noticed about the other team was that they were a bunch of starving weak pussies.No wonder Murshidi was mad;he was the aggressive defensive player and being made to reduce the tenacity of his tackles was bloody stupid as they were his major attributes.I realised why I was playing leftwing,the rightwing was a fast sonovitch by the name of norman.I tried to do a steal from him at first but he was just waiting for the sidestep into his runs.So what I did finally was a sliding tackle that WAS legal,but the guy apparently never ate his breakfast and fell and bloody hell almost started a fight.By God,I could almost swear it was legal.Well I guess they wanted to complain about us so we could let them pass like water.

In case you didn't know,Gremlins F.C. IS a tough tackling team.Almost half of the guys tackled hard;Murshidi,Hafiz damai,Efin,Farid,Isa,Redhuwan,Jawad,Luqman and Aliff.As for me,sliding in with both your legs is nothing compared to realising that you are going to get tackled by TWO RJC forwards.Tackled HARD.Well my mentality is somewhat different but what the hell,it gets the job done.

Anyway,their trying to trick us backfired.We went in even harder;it was like the battle of the tackles.I tackled that norman guy later on again and he shut up nicely.But the rest of the team didn't.It almost turn out into a free for all.There was one time a guy was playing the ball around and two of our guys were deciding how they should stop him.The guy was playing the ball around them.I tackled the guy from behind and hit the ball outside.Haiz.When they scored their only goal,they were like screaming all at once.I find that funny,having been told that celebrations after scoring tries are extremely frowned upon.As the match worn on,the other team stop functioning and attacking.Well my guys are superb at their fitness and we step up a gear,with the midfield forming into the attacking force and the defense cleared up any balls that went into our half.We got another four more goals with Hafiz's hat-trick,Luqman's curler and Farid tyco shot.

Well we found out later they were smoking tams...no wonder.The only few guys that smoked in Gremlins quit months ago.That also account for their extremely frail bodies.The Gremlins are so pissed off that another match is unlikely to happen again unless they swear that they will take no offense at hard BUT fair tackles.Chain-smoking pussies.Hah.Rangers lead the Way!

HOW BAD IS YOUR ANGER : ACCORDING TO YOUR HOROSCOPE.
TAURUS April 21 May 20
You are generally quiet and have control over your emotions.
It is difficult to predict what will upset you, so when you do lose your cool, people don't know how to react.
Your temper is like that of a raging bull, and anyone trying to pacify you will be the first one to get a verbal bashing.
You generally get upset when you are cornered or when people accuse you of doing something wrong.
You also hate being reminded about mistakes you've made in the past.
You also have the potential to be terribly vindictive if rubbed the wrong way.

Actually,if you really read all of the horoscopes,you would pretty much noticed that
all the bloody advice is the same old thing.The words might be different,but it's all synnonyms of the same old thing.I don't believe in stupid "Tomorrow will be a day to make an impact on your life" kind of advice.Do you supposed that a man sentenced to death will get a horoscope saying he will lead a purposeful life?I seriously doubt if the horoscpoes are true.Maybe the astrologers are just people with brilliant english and bad mathematical knowledge.

As far as I know,you can just paste the bloody horoscope on any guy,chances are some of what you say describe some of your characteristics.That's why all the horoscopes description are so generalized...I think that horoscopes are just bloody well estimated guesses based on what you say about your life.You ever wonder that the most "accurate" horoscopes ask you all types of stuff like whether you smoke,the amount of exercise you do and the type of things you eat?I come across one that has around 150 questions.That's not a horoscope anymore,that's a bloody life insurance form!!

Well as far as horoscopes are concerned,its caveat emptor.I prefer a much more better advice.Life sucks,so what?Rangers lead the way!

Been on the net for awhile and can't say these stuff didn't crossed my mind.






Now that is the iPod mini, the Asics Gel Verdict DS racer and Adidas Gammanova 2 SG boot respectively.Forgive me if my choices do not have the artistic flair that some people need,but my choices get the job done.That is what I like.

Cruel thing,love can be.

You never expect it to burn in your heart after many years.It's such a undefined thing;a stuff of dreams,vivid and abstract,totally undeniable to a human.Just an absent thought can make your heart pound hard;dreaming of driving that porsche you always wanted,having that special someone make love to you during a stormy night.How can there be such a blissful thing I wonder?A scene where unrequited love simply does not happen?A thing so glorious that it can overcome physical science?

The fact of the matter is,it can and does happens.It occurs all over the world,something like an epidemic spreading like wildfire.It can happen when you're in the store and you happen to see a girl that you just can't stop looking at and by the way she looks at you,you know she feels the same thing about you.That's call love at first sight.But then again,something entirely different can set in.It is known by different names,different followers.

Lust,fanatism,obsession,jealousy,infatuation are the few examples.These so called love is a being that is absolutely different,yet only a thin line separates them from love.Undoubtingly,we allow ourselves to get swept up into a maelstorm because of them.Most of the time we end our desires with a broken heart,a mind made up not to repeat a silly mistake again,an unconsious effort to hide away from the opposite sex,perhaps.Rarely,these reckless pursuits end only in death,as though Love and Death are playing a bloody,twisted game of chess.

Only a few are able to distinguish between love and "unlove".Only they are able to experince love as the nectar of the gods,a state of something akin to nirvana.The rest must play the game,however twisted and deceitful it can be.

Cruel thing,love is.

I simply don't get it.Why are so many people my age getting problems only a thirty year old should get?It's not your usual brady bunch of problems,it's something that I wish I never get.Why should a 16 year old guy support his family now?Why must he quit school and start working.And work as a fast food crew at that!What can you get,$400 a month?That is money of course but it's a crappy shitload of cash.

One of my friends is pregnant.What am I supposed to do to help her?Both her and her boyfriend's minds are blank and shocked.What the heck am I to do,screw the boyfriend up?He is screwed enough already.My friend is now wandering somewhere in her neighbourhood with her boyfriend,wondering if they should keep the baby or not.She's scared shitless that her family will find out.I don't blame her,how many girls are getting pregnant nowadays?Everywhere I go,there I see it.Girls,barely out of their teenage lives,struggling to fold the baby pram while her baby is crying mad.But damn,where the heck is the father?Playing around some ther girl or getting drunk with his friends?I don't want to see my friend become another stastistic.I don't want my friend to support herself when the father of her baby has no balls to face the music with her. Berani buat,berani tanggung.Never ever shrirk away your bloody responsibilities and leave her for dead.Then what the hell make you fall in love with the girl in the first place?Or do you see girls just as another piece of meat to be tasted and thrown away?A disposable commodity that you can buy?

I will bloody hell punch the cassanova that thinks he will get away with anything.I will fucking hell punch his goddamned face if I meet a guy who thinks he fuck all those gals and leave them for the next virgin that comes along.God Willing,these types of guys will pay.I wonder how the heck these girls can live on their lives.I can't bear to see all these problems my friends are encountering now.They shouldn't.


There is something God Willing that I hope I can do.

To my friend who is walking around now,it's alright to be scared but you have to be strong to make your own decision.

To you guys who are facing problems that you think will be the end of the world,it's not and I will do my damnest to offer you a listening ear and get you over it.

To a girl who I met on the 14 of May 2002,SHMILY.

Oh well,stupid way to spend the day.Hmm lets start from yesterday.

We had Teachers' Day celebration in the morning.It was alright,with the ACES day thingy...We were lindyhopping all tha way!hah,there were a few guys that was treating it seriously,namely KNEEclous!Damn,the guy is doing it as though it is the singapore workout and as usual Navin bastarded him all the way...After that was the concert.The concert had a 70s retro look,damned stylo...all the councillors were wearing bell bottoms,flared skirts and super tight shirts...I can remember two items clearly,Chrishan as THE GREAT PAEDOPHILE himself, Micheal Jacko!I tell you,the guy was really strutting his stuff,shaking it like a polaroid picture.When he finished his dance,everyone,I mean EVERYONE,gave the guy a standing ovation...even Mr Chua,the lindyhopper,gave him a salute.It was really POWER TO THE GEDEGAK,GEDEGAK TO THE CORE!...The other was the dikir barat guys...they wore fake afro wigs and all that..very classy..Forgive me for using alot of capital letters in my entry today...but there are certain points I wish to illuminate..haha..We got a party for my class teachers later,it was alright with Yuan,Hafiz and me interfering in a lot of the pictures taken..One of the pictures taken was a full fucked up Kodak moment...made by the Master Yuan himself..

Then I went to JP with Aung..we wanted to go to HKSS,then we realised that they were having Cross Country...damn,I miss Cross Country..getting to Jurong Park early in the morning,warming up..overseeing the setting up of the equipment by the Sportleaders...The actual race itself..The Championship trophy..hehe..Miss running there,maybe I should do my one of my runs there just to get the nolstalgia going...

Well then,what did I do today?Woke up at 4pm,decided I shouldn't go out,decided I shouldn't give a damn about my math file and did nuts...What a great way to waste 24 hours,you should try it some day...