Life sucks,so what?Rangers Lead The Way!

Went for track again.Got a massive headache after the second set.Never had it before.Guess I'm pushing too hard again.Goddamnit.

One whole week since I last blogged.Got caught up with schoolwork and all that.Somehow I beginning to understand math,although I'm hopelessly lost at physics particularly the thermodynamics.Now I'm starting to pay more attention to my schoolwork;hope that pays off next year.

One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

[Chorus]
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Let me go

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

[Chorus]
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Just Let me goo...
Let me go

And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I knowww..
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows

[Chorus]
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know Who I am
So let me go
Just let me go

And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know who I am
And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know me

That was the end of the MI touch carnival.We got a pretty good response with five guys teams and three girls teams taking part.I must say that my team mates taught some of the teams well;they were doing or trying to do dummy scissors,loop and all the basic moves.I got to officiate several games although none of them were female matches.One thing about being a referee;you need to have a very loud whistle to stop play.It was both stressful and satisfying to officiate,somehow I got to love it.One final thing before we pack up;I got to officiate the all-star game between the forwards and the backs.Now that is a real honour.Heh.

I'm coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

I’m coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

Cause I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

I never...
I never...
I never...

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

Let this be a warning for all runners who think they can do their training after NAPFA tests;just don't try of doing it,you're going to regret it like a cold corpse in freezing hell.You would just be purely shagged beyond the benefit of the doubt.No doubt I've become such a fine specimen to examine now.So yeah,didn't get perfect 30 this time also,the board jump and sit and reach being the usual brady bunch where I can actually do poorly.Nevertheless I still got a gold and maybe grabbed the 2.4km run record.

Well after that was pure misery as I do my make up diffrentiation test with the help of the whole class.Special thanks to Nabilah,Teck Way,Shaheda,Hafiz and those I didn't mention for the great help.Had training after that.Went nuts with all the enorphins raging in my body.One nice thing was that my Gel-1090 was just alright for training;it was a worthwhile buy.

Got back from town,again.Got a $169 pair of Asics Gel-1090 for a flat 100 thanks to dear old Mr Chua.Thought of getting the Ds-Flash but figure a pair of lime green trainers wouldn't exactly be conforming to institute regulations.Too bad I couldn't get the Gel-Verdict trainers which were sold out;Joshua would scream if I got them at 60% store price.Anyway,got this in my friendster bulletin.Another one of these advocates.Actually I don't mind these compilation of mats and minahs;they don't worth a fuck to me.

Haven't u all noticed?
First of all, additional note by me: I may
not be a big fan of anything
emo/goth/ska, but I have enough respect
for any culture to believe that there
certain 'influences' that should not be
allowed to tarnish what each of them
stand for. If you love and believe in
something, protect it. Pls read on... ---------
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Have you all noticed? Skimmers a.k.a
people who originally wear surfwears:
HAVE been corrupted by matreps and
minah reps? Goons wearing quiksilver
and stussy and the mats are even
wearing roxy. Freaky. Now matreps are
invading the Indie Culture. But the only
thing they know about Indie is THE
STROKES, OASIS and MUSE (well
well.. muse ain't an indie band.. they
are alternative, ass.) They're even
wearing Topman and Ben Shermans
and shouting out that they're Indies. So
please, if you see them down the streets,
whack them! Don't think that sub-
cultures could escape this invasion of
matreps and minah reps.. the mats
would wear half a bottle of hair gel and
claiming that they are rudies.. weird but
true. And some are even clad in all
black, eyeliners, studded belts and
called themselves Emo/Goth. What the
hell? and even make their profiles
seemed so depressing and stuff. Go
check them out, there's loads of them
here in Friendster. Now, the popular
phrase: "I ain't a minah and i hate
minahs!" Here, they're trying to make an
impression that they're normal or in other
words "relek". Even with their oh-so-thin-
pencil- drawn eyebrows, cakey make-ups,
tattoos (or some mentioned them
as "tetu"), the tappered pants and the
worst, the way they talked -
sachek/sachok/gentel biji?? Again, what
the fark? Yet, they still claimed
themselves as not a minah. Tak paham
tak paham! The only thing that is still
holding on are the Hardcore and
whatever there is left.. NEVER let
matreps or minah reps claim that they
belong to this group. All in all, action
must be taken against these posers..
PLEASE PASS THIS MSG AROUND IF
YOU ARE SICK OF THIS WANKERS!

Went to town and caught a bit of the Ching gay parade.It was packed as hell with some pathways being almost impossible to walk along.I didn't find anything to see,with the exception the huge firecrackers that went off and sprayed the largely standing audience with paper fragmentation.Other than that,nothing else.

[Intro]
Heads up! Heads up!
Here's another one!
And a - and another one
OOHHHHHHHH!!!

[Chorus]
Yeek yeek woop woop!! why you all in my ear?!
Talking a whole bunch of shit
That I ain't trying to hear!
Get back muhfucker! You don't know me like that!
(Get back muhfucker!! You don't know me like that!!)
Yeek yeek woop woop!! I ain't playing around!
Make one false move I'll take ya down
Get back muhfucker! You don't know me like that!
(Get back muhfucker!! You don't know me like that!!)

[Verse]
WHOO!! S-s-so c'mon c'mon
DON'T ... get swung on, swung on
It's the knick knack paddywhack, still ride in Cadillacs
Family off the street! made my homies put the baggies back
Still stacking plaques! (yep!) still action packed! (yep!)
And dough!! I keep it flipping like acrobats!
That's why I pack a mac, that'll crack 'em back
Cause on my waist there's more Heat than the Shaq Attack
But I ain't speaking about ballin, ballin
Just thinking about brawlin till y'all start bawlin
We all in together now, birds of a feather now
Just bought a plane so we changing the weather now
So put your brakes on, caps put your capes on
Or knock off your block, get dropped and have your face flown
Cause I'll prove it! scratch off the music!
Like hey little stupid! don't make me lose it!!

[Chorus]

[Bridge - repeat 4x]
I came (I came) I saw (I saw)
I hit 'em right dead in the jaw (in the jaw)

[Verse]
See I caught 'em wit a right hook, caught 'em wit a jab
Caught 'em wit an uppercut, kicked 'em in his ass
Sent him on his way cause I ain't for that talk!
No trips to the county, I ain't for that walk!
We split like two pins at the end of a lane
We'll knock out your spotlight and put an end to your vain
Put a DTP pendant at the end of yo chain
Then put the booty of a Swisha at the end of a flame

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
HEY! You want what wit me?!
I'm a tell you one time, don't FUCK wit me!
GET DOWN! Cause I ain't got nothing to lose
I'm having a bad day, don't make me take it out on you!
You want what wit me?!
I'm a tell you one time, don't FUCK wit me!
GET DOWN! Cause I ain't got nothing to lose
And I'm having a bad day, don't make me take it out on you!

[Verse]
Man! Cause I don't wanna do that
I want to have a good time and enjoy my Jack
Sit back and watch the women get drunk as hell
So I can wake up in the morning wit a story to tell
I know it's been a lil while since I been out the house!
But now I'm here, you wanna stand around
running your mouth?!
I can't hear nothing you saying or spitting, so wassup!
Can't you see we in the club?! Man shut the fuck up!!

[Chorus]

[Outro]
Ah! We in the Red Light District!!
Ah! We in the Red Light District!!
WHOO!! We in the Red Light District!!
Ah! We in the Red Light District!!
WHOO!! We in the Red Light District!!
WHOO!! The Red Light District!!
WHOO!! The Red Light District!!
Ah, we in The Red Light District

It was alright,playing against SRJC and NYJC.We drew with both teams.All three teams were testing their team for the first time and I have to say we did alright,neither playing badly nor well.We know now that JI works but M1 still needs some tinkering with.Just as well I was playing winger again with Navin being the standing scrumhalf.Both of us did a few mistakes,albeit me making a bit more.Seems like I still have to work on my confidence in the game.

In all the time that I learnt sports and team psychology I can say in all truth, even though my learning was a bit unorthodox,that the MI rugby team is falling in pieces.A lot of things happen during the teamplay.It was frustating to see a spark out of nowhere blowing the tempers already brewing then.I don't wish to put anyone to blame but Jonathan,being a captain of the team,was wrong to act that way.Lets put a end to this mockery of a team,we can't have the team imploding when A division comes.We are going to get embarassed and it won't do Sam any good.It really won't do Sam any good.

When I was young I knew everything
And she a punk who rarely ever took advice
Now i'm guilt stricken, sobbing with my head on the floor
Stop a baby's breath and a shoe full of rice

I can't be held responsible
Cause she was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe we'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

My best friend took a week's vacation to forget her
His girl took a week's worth of valium and slept
Now he's guilt stricken sobbing with his head on the floor
Thinks about her now and how he never really wept he says

I can't be held responsible
Cause she was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe we'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

We've tried to wash our hands of all of this
We never talk of our lacking relationships
And how we're guilt stricken sobbing with our heads on the floor
We fell through the ice when we tried not to slip, we'd say

I can't be held responsible
Cause she was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe we'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

We were merely freshmen
We were merely freshmen
We were only freshmen

One for me to remember and apply.

C'est une grande habilete que de savoir cacher son habilete.
-To know how to hide one's ability is great skill.

Francois Duc de La Rochefoucauld

I'm amazed by the number of people staring at me in town today.Maybe it's because thay are wallabies and I was wearing an all blacks shirt.But I doubt the rationale of this hypothesis.Guys wearing tapered three quarter pants, stupid imitation von dutch caps with tight Fred Perry polo shirts are not exactly the kind to sing Waltzing Matilda after The Haka.How about another hypothesis?Maybe,just maybe,these guys do what,fourteen minutes for their 2.4km and they see a guy who can do a sub 11 for 3000 metres.They get up all jealous and keep staring at me.Nah,that doesn't quite add up.You know what,I'm sick and tired of being goddamned compared by mats each time I go out.Being scrutinized,each apparel of clothing I wear being examined in fine detail.So I don't have a packet of smokes in my hand,my hair isn't all that spiky and dyed like a pussy's and I wear my GelAccel racer with pride.What does it matter to you?Go and get yourselves a life.I have better things to do than argue with simplistic beings like you.

Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village, though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.

My little horse must think it's queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.

He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there's some mistake.
The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.

The woods are lovely, dark, and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

Robert Frost

Now that is the first ever time that I have come home,totally wasted and hungry.But then my nose was still stuffed and my throat felt as though Faizah had used a disc sander on it(and I still remember how you did it).Let me tell you this,if anyone,the year 1s or 2s,anyone at all,say that the rugby or track team has sub par fitness,I am bloody hell going to whack the son of the bitch.Actually I know that all the sports group in MI are right up there with all the other JCs in terms of fitness,its just a matter of skill that JCs tend to attract and that MI have to cultivate.Well maybe not rugby,we got enough jackarses that didn't come for today's training.The almost all the backs turned up with the exception of LC.For the forwards,lets not go there now shall we?We did our team runs,cocking up most and making a beauty with the remainder.Personally I thought that we weren't being convincing enough and that other teams may see through our starter plays.Then for track,yes I did went for track afterwards,we did eight sets of 300m at 60s.The guys had just done slope work up the Toh Tuck road and I was surprised that they didn't lost it when Mr Chua suggest that we do intervals.I met most of the year 1s and they seem alright to me,if not a bit overly decent.Some of the seniors try to relieve the tension of training by cracking jokes,ok maybe it was me that did the relieving but it certainly work and all of them know me now.Heh,the first impressions you can give to people.Besides,I can't act like a shy,modest SNAG,Dani is going to slap me if I did.

Had my SAAA road relay today.Can't say it wasn't the best of my races.I was in the first team with Angelo,Muru,Nicklaus and me running in that order.I was quite sad that my timing for the 3.2km route was 12.45min,Chua Ee Ghim did a 10.45.I was a full two minutes behind who is undoubtingly the best cross-country runner hands down.And I can still remember following his pace all the way when I was in secondary 2,running in the 2001 national cross-country.How much things have change now for me.Overall I didn't do so bad with Nickclaus running 13min and Angelo five seconds later.Muru was disappointed with himself I think,managing only 15mins.I was too.






Sometimes I wonder where I would stand if I had gone to a decent JC like I should have.Maybe I would have been up there with JJC's best or might have even get a starting place at ACJC.Might have.I know that the last runner for ACJ was 12.55.Damn.Why am I even contemplating JC life?I'm doing alright in MI,having two CCAs which would be impossible if I were in JC.But just for once I would want to be in a team of my equals,a team not built up around me.Hong Kah had done that to me all the while when I was in secondary school,putting people in just so I would be able to take part in a cross-country event.Enough to take part but never enough to win a team championship.Guys like me can never win a team championship by themselves,we don't have the calibre to do that.Instead we take our places behind a top ten runner and run with him all the way.

I wish MI can do that.

Friday morning,bright as always.It was a better day than most.The only bad thing was PE,and even that was good.Physics and chemistry lectures was alright.Didn't do nuts for PE,none of that physical conditioning shit.All we did was a couple of chin ups and we were off to play our own game.I chosed to work on my scrumhalf delivery.Heh,I didn't even get caught for not wearing school shorts.Hmm,had detention at 3,if you can call it that.Mr Cheen would have been so disgraced by the standards set.We were supposed to do school service and clean our allocated classes.Instead I played badminton with Dani for the first half hour and talk to Angelo and his gorgeous classmate for the other half.I let the poor year 1s clean the place up and simplay signed my name at the end of it.Hah.Rugby was slightly toughter.We had to do our pocket runner,quick thinking situations and the fitness session.I don't know why they say the fitness is so hard.I find it no different from PE.

Damn,got busted by Mr Tan again.I was late for the umpteenth time and sneaked in the usual way.By the way,it was 10.15am..I was begging Mr Saw not to book me in.Hehe,I was practically wasting the remaining 15 minutes making Mr Saw promise.Well,he is a good fella and it was Mr Tan who burst my bubble during Home tutor period.Anyway,now I have to go for detention two weeks in a row.Damn,the last time time I had to go for detention,it lasted all of 5 minutes with the DM kicking me out of the detention room when he came into the room.I mean,who would want to argue with a DM when he gives a disciplinary pardon right?So now I have to go for detention for this week and the week after next.Sure hope lightning strike twice.

[Jadakiss]
Aha
It's dead real
Yo, why is Jadakiss as hard as it gets
Why is the industry designed to keep the artist in debt
And why them dudes ain't ridin' if they're part of your set
And why they never get it poppin' but they party to death
Yea, and why they gon give you life for a murder
Turn around only give you eight months for a burner, it's goin down
Why they sellin' niggaz CD's for under a dime
If it's all love daddy why you come wit your nine?
Why my niggaz ain't get that cake
Why is a brother up North better than Jordan
That ain't get that break
Why you ain't stackin' instead of tryin' to be fly
Why is rattin' at an all time high
Why are you even alive
Why they kill Tupac n' Chris
Why at the bar you ain't take straight shots instead of poppin Cris'
Why them bullets have to hit that door
Why did Kobe have to hit that raw
Why he kiss that whore
Why

[Chorus: Anthony Hamilton]
All that I been givin'
Is this thing that I've been living
They got me in the system
Why they gotta do me like that
Try'd to make it my way
But got sent on up the highway
Why, oh why
Why they do me like that

[Jadakiss]
Why would niggaz push pounds and powder
Why did bush knock down the towers
Why you around them cowards
Why Aaliyah have to take that flight
Why my nigga D ain't pull out his Ferrari
Why he take that bike
Why they gotta open your package and read your mail
Why they stop lettin' niggaz get degreez in jail
Why you gotta do eighty-five percent of your time
And why do "niggaz" lie in eighty-five percent of they rhymes
Why a nigga always want what he can't have
Why I can't come through in the pecan Jag
Why did crack have to hit so hard
Even though it's almost over
Why niggaz can't get no jobs
Why they come up wit the witness protection
Why they let the terminator win the election
Come on, pay attention
Why sell in the stores what you can sell in the streets
Why I say the hottest shit but we sellin' the least

[Chorus]

[Jadakiss]
Uh, yea, yo
Why Halle have to let a white man pop her to get a Oscar
Why Denzel have to be crooked before he took it
Why they didn't make the CL6 wit a clutch
And if you don't smoke why the hell you reachin' for my dutch
Why rap, cause I need air time
Why be on the curb wit a "why lie I need a beer" sign
Why all the young niggaz is dyin'
Cause they moms at work, they pops is gone, they livin' wit iron
Why they ain't give us a cure for aids
Why my diesel have fiends in the spot on the floor for days
Why you screamin' like it's slug, it's only the hawk
Why my buzz in L.A. ain't like it is in New York
Why you forcin' you to be hard
Why ain't you a thug by choice?
Why the whole world love my voice
Why try to tell 'em that it's the flow son
And you know why they made the new twenties
Cause I got all the old ones
That's why