Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Waiting here.
Someone once said;
If you love someone, let them go. If they come back to you, then both of you are meant to be together. If they don't come back, hunt them down with a benelli shotgun. And make sure it's automated.
Well I don't intend to follow that advice. I know now I can't have you. It was a mistake I made. Make that several huge mistakes. But now I have to do something to fill my life with now that there is a huge abyss where you to be.I'm really sorry I treated you badly, and you had to find someone else to find comfort in.I never meant to hurt you or Dian.All those threats were lies to get your attention on me. It's not that I had intended to treat you badly, but that by itself is a bad excuse. Personally, I blame myself for letting this happen to us. Go with him now, he's the one that you love. But know this. I would,deep inside, always be willing to take you back.
You went to him to seek comfort. I hope he would treat you better than I did. You said that you don't feel the same thing when you're with him than when you're with me. That feeling will come,sooner or later. Please give him a chance to love you.I can't have you for myself now. You have to let him love you as I used to. Who knows, he might love you even more than all the love I showed to you.
If you want me to remove the picture of us,I will. But I rather keep it there to remind myself of the love I used to had and will never have again.SHMILY.
If you love someone, let them go. If they come back to you, then both of you are meant to be together. If they don't come back, hunt them down with a benelli shotgun. And make sure it's automated.
Well I don't intend to follow that advice. I know now I can't have you. It was a mistake I made. Make that several huge mistakes. But now I have to do something to fill my life with now that there is a huge abyss where you to be.I'm really sorry I treated you badly, and you had to find someone else to find comfort in.I never meant to hurt you or Dian.All those threats were lies to get your attention on me. It's not that I had intended to treat you badly, but that by itself is a bad excuse. Personally, I blame myself for letting this happen to us. Go with him now, he's the one that you love. But know this. I would,deep inside, always be willing to take you back.
You went to him to seek comfort. I hope he would treat you better than I did. You said that you don't feel the same thing when you're with him than when you're with me. That feeling will come,sooner or later. Please give him a chance to love you.I can't have you for myself now. You have to let him love you as I used to. Who knows, he might love you even more than all the love I showed to you.
If you want me to remove the picture of us,I will. But I rather keep it there to remind myself of the love I used to had and will never have again.SHMILY.
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
Torn.
If you think that it is easy to let you go, it's not. I'm not the one being the hypocrite in case you're wondering.Do you even realise how much your manipulative words hurt? It is true; words cut deeper into a man's soul than a razor-edge sword.You don't even act sorry for what you have done.For what it is, you are a disappointment to me, to your parents and most of all, Syafiqa. I don't even know how is it that I still love you, but I do. Except that it is now vengeful love, if such a thing can exist.If what you say is true about guys in general, won't he also want to get a chance to screw with you. After all, that's what you say are; a used rag doll.If I have treated you like one last time, I'm truly sorry.The only way that you will leave me would be over my dead body.The way I see it, we haven't separated and that guy of yours is a fucking intruder in our relationship.The only way you will see your lover would be literally over my, and Syafiqa's dead body.See it anyway you want.But I doubt you would care about us.Indeed, you might even want to sleep with him.Do so at the risk of alienating everyone you know.For you are the one in the wrong,and yet you think you're being self-righteous.Go ahead and be independant,your family would rather have me in their house anyway. And as for you Jacq, you seriously have to sort your priorities straight and stop fucking into other people's affairs.For you are just in the same position as my girlfriend;that of a fucking bitch.
